I AM SO FUCKING TERRIFIED OF WHAT I’M CAPABLE OF.
I really want to die, because there is no other way. My life is turning to crap. But there are people that love me and I love them. And I know, although I’d be dead, that I will miss them. I’m scared that I’m cutting some amazing things short. But a lot of the time anxiety and depression outweigh any rationality.
I planned on doing it tonight, or at latest tomorrow.
I feel sick.
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I would say try and hold off on it, at least until you’re more convinced it’s the right choice for you. Is there anything that can get you through the next few days, so that you have a chance to think about it more calmly?
I suppose I could hold of until friday, that’s when I’m seeing my psychiatrist
Your Dr. Will put you in the hospital if you tell tell them you are about kill yourself
Yeah, be careful what you tell your doctor, if you mention that you are going to kill yourself they’ll lock you up immediately. After all, if you die, who will give them more money?
She knows I sometimes think about it. I make sure to always say that I don’t have an active plan. I hate the hospital so much, I can only imagine how much worse an inpatient clinic would be.
In my experience, inpatient isn’t terrible as long as you got to a good place. I’ve been to inpatient 5 times and most were helpful.
I would wait it out though…
You never know, maybe a week from now you’ll feel differently.
if you want to do it then do it. its your life and its whatever you want.
Kudos for seeing that death also destroys the good things. Most suicidal people focus on death being the end of pain but its also the end of happy times, even though they are rare