I’ve been told all I’m good at is bitching. I ***** about simply things such as ashing on my table when the ash tray is right beside where they ashed. Or after playing beer pong all night and leaving half drunken beers and so forth all over the place. Help me clean. And I don’t even play. Or drink. Or just helping me take the puppy out. I get yelled at 4 am over he can’t find his belt and I tell him where it is and he doesn’t look and it’s not there. Where he took it off might I Add.
My boyfriend yells at me and tells me I’m “dumb” and everything is falling apart and it’s my fault! It tears me down. Hurts me.
I feel so useless and unimportant. I think he might just keep me there to help with bills.
Sometimes I feel like I could kill myself and no one would care.
I know he wouldn’t because all I do is *****.
I try to think positive that’s why I haven’t done it. Ya know end it. Because I say tomorrow will be better.
Its never bettter.
May my breaking point!
I just wish I didn’t exist. Killing myself would make everyone happy.
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Why won’t you just leave him?
I truly love him. We have good days. Then horrible days.
Then tell him that he hurts you when he those type of things.
Sometimes a person gets trapped in an abusive relationship because the abuser knows as long as they ‘make up for what they did’ the other person will be pacified and be given the false illusion that everything’s okay. Then the abuser just turns nasty again. They keep the cycle going because they know it will keep the other person emotionally trapped. I don’t know enough about your relationship to label this definitively as abuse. Maybe he’s just an inconsiderate jerk. But the fact that you feel like you want to kill yourself over it indicates abuse.
I understand legitimately wanting to save a relationship, especially in the case of marriage. However, it takes two people to form a relationship, and if one person is abusing the other, they’re not really interested in sustaining that relationship.
Oh, and abusers always blame the other person. It’s always the other person’s fault for “bitching too much” or whatever.
He doesn’t care. He’ll say sorry after completely tearing me down.
He will say that, as you expect him to or he has b/c you’ve brought it up in the past? If he doesn’t realize he’s emotionally destructive it would be a worthwhile conversation. We boys can be quite obtuse in matters like these but if he cares he should know and should take steps to not hurt you. If he doesn’t I think you need to begin distancing yourself
Sorry
If it happens once, OK. If it happens twice, it’s a concern. After that he’s just going to keep on doing it…or worse. At that point sorry isn’t going to cut it. You need to see him take action to fix it…or he doesn’t deserve you.
Are you sure you’re not confusing love with the fear of being alone? Love is supposed to go both ways for it to be truly love. This relationship is clearly toxic for you, especially for the fact that he doesn’t even want to change his appalling behavior. I think you should really consider getting out of this.
Don’t think positive. Nothing about the situation you have described is positive, not even remotely. The only positive thing is that you have the power to change this situation, and walk away. No one can change someone else. You only have control over yourself. So my advice to you is simple: leave him.
Please consider leaving him. I don’t know the whole situation but it sounds like losing the love between you will be worth it in a few months of being self-sufficient on your own without his negative influence. I’ve been there.
Either way, please take good care of the puppy.
Good luck to you!
Idk anymore yall! He tears me down everyday we had a great day now gone to shit over money. I spent 800 since my payday Friday. I paid our rent and got cable inside. I’ve never done that before or really put a lot in. But now i can’t even buy work pants because we need to save money for his insurance but my car payment isn’t paid