I am losing human contact. I find myself shifting away from human touch and interaction, even with my family, but nobody notices. I feel dead dead so dead. Does anybody else do this? Why am I reacting in this way when I crave human contact and interaction?
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me too like you. But I think the reason my lack of love for human contact is that I love myself so much!
@velveteennightingale I find myself doing the exact same thing. I think it might have something to do with trust, at least for me.
I shun those that I deem normal. Misery loves company
I do this too, VNG. I don’t recommend it but I try to take the consideration of others into account. When I’m a miserable ***** no person should need to withstand my wrath. Hence, me being single. Now, if I can squelch my ‘feelin sorry for myself’ attitude I try to offer a that version of myself. Catch myself when I’m dropping and dip early before I become snarky.
I want present the better version of myself but it must be given sparingly because I only feel it sparingly.
This may give an impression of manic depressive but it’s gotta beat just depressed, self loathing, right?
I hope you too may have some good days, or moments, where you don’t feel so secluded and try to embrace it. Even if it’s just a text conversation with someone close
Velveteen, yes.
I have shied away from human contact a lot lately. A lot.
Letting go of attachments is a precursor for letting go of life.
It’s easier for all of us (me and my family) that way.
Creating emotional distance is self-preserving for them and completely understandable.
For me? I don’t want to feel guilty or beholden or anything that will make me change my mind.
I feel bad that I’m snarky with my family. I try really hard not to be but it’s like I can’t control it. And I know all about having trust issues, trust me (pun intended). I don’t trust anybody, including my family most of the time. So maybe that’s part of it. And I definitely don’t love myself.
I get that too. Family, colleagues, it’s internal. It’s me. I can be a delicate flower too quickly (preemptively even) going on the defensive (offensive)
At one point there was a post about being able to put words to the feelings, it helps to understand. I can TRY to intervene