When I began as a regular on this website, or forum, or whatever you wanna call it…I had one objective. To compile a record or list of my problems and describe my suffering and what afflictions I had been burdened of. Well, fast forward a month or two and I’ve only really made one significant entry. Not because I’m lazy or don’t have it all on my mind, but because I’m short on time and afraid of what others will think, even if you all are strangers.
I digress… if you had to make a list of all that is wrong with your life and why you’d rather die, what would it look like? More entries to come from me describing why I have chosen to one day end it myself.
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The only person you need to justify your actions to is yourself, and when necessary, law enforcement.
I think it would be short. There’s a lot of things I don’t like, and want to escape, but with each passing day, I can see the reason clearer. It’s pretty simple, in my case, but the ripple effect, everything it touches, is vast.
I dislike myself.
Reasons why are irrelevant, but again, the ripple effect. . . It really affects my will to live. It robs me.
Something along the lines of…
Too much (physical) pain
Too much (emotional) pain
Physically incapable of supporting myself or even taking care of myself some days
No rational hope for the future
Tired of people acting like I’m not trying hard enough
Tired of people not believing me
Tired of relying on everyone else, and dragging them down with me
…really just tired xD;