Just a cut.
Just a scratch.
“What’s that mark?”
“It was the cat.”
Just an excuse.
Just a lie.
“What’s with all the bracelets?”
“Just fashion, why?”
Just a tear.
Just a scream.
“Why were you crying?”
“Just a bad dream.”
But it’s not just a cut.
Or a tear, or a lie.
It’s always ‘just one more’.
Until you die.
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Throw away all the blades…
Let my hands dry that tear…
& even if you lie to me for days & days…
for You, I always will be here…
I can’t just throw out the blades…they’ve turned into my family…
then we’ll make the best shield we possibly can & we’ll use it to block all the blows, cuts & stabs while trying to negotiate a truce with them… so they may no longer try to cut you…
I feel bad saying this but I’m their Commander/Leader
Not true
you only, mistakenly, think so
I’ll copy past something I said yesterday to another beautiful person here who posted the title “Battling with Myself” & said they don’t know when the battle will be over…
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I’m proud of you for using that word
“battling”
You are seeing this for what it really is
I just think you need correct your view about who your enemy is…
it’s not “yourself” [“myself”]
it’s the “depression” / “tiredness” / “loss of hope” / “procrastination” / “sadness” / “grief” / “regret” / “pain” / “hurt”
“Within You”
[more specifically, the “thoughts” & “ideas” of the above things… these “thoughts” & “ideas” make up the army of your enemy]
not “You”, not “yourself”
“Yourself” is the warrior… the fighter… the commander of “your army” of logical, realistic & positive [or at least neutral] thoughts & ideas
with which you can effectively fight & battle
& by God’s will
prevail
over the above mentioned enemies
How long will that battle go on? For how long will these enemies keep on reinforcing themselves & attacking you again & again
I wish I could say, “not for long”
I wish i could tell you that this war will end “very soon”…
but I believe the truth to be
that only God knows
& He’s the only one capable of “making” this war end sooner than it’s destined to be
so I say,
if you can believe that,
Pray that this would be the case
Till then, it’s a daily battle
that goes on all day
you sleep too much because that’s the only way this battle could momentarily seize
the only way you could take a break
but once your eyes open, it begins again
whether u want it to or not
& if you don’t get out of bed,
your enemies are winning
I say,
look at getting out of bed
as step one
your first defensive “charge”
to win today’s battle
“Yourself” is beautiful & amazing
“Yourself” is a talented commander
& I say
“Yourself”
should never give up
& “You”
should never give up on “Yourself”
<3
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another part
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I suggest you picture “unmotivation” as a condition…
Your enemies sneaked in & stole / burned the fuel you use to motorize you army’s vehicles / the food you feed your army’s horses
until you can manage to find another source of fuel / food
or actually manage to generate your own
you & your army are currently forced to have your battles “on foot”
it’s difficult & tiresome
but it will build you stamina & endurance
I’ll put it this way
“If you can get through this, you can get through ANYTHING that comes on later…”
🙂
Best to you
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