The toughest thing I’ve been having to deal with, is not finding the light but becoming the light for others to look up to. I do have a network of close friends but even then I don’t see myself going to them for help because I don’t want to bother them. Instead I rather be “the light” or in other words, the person folks go to for a ear to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, the person to vent about things to, and much more. Like always however, that’s never easy and I accept that. I accept I’m not the only friend. I accept that we all have other friends to go to. But it sucks knowing that they don’t go to you or even try to keep in contact. Not even a checking up on you message.
Eh, the world is a big place and is changing rapidly. I will continue being the light for my group of friends and others. I rather take the pain they are being inflicted with. I never want to see my friends in sadness or in pain. I embrace walking the lone wolf’s path, but I know better that sometimes its fun to run with the pack.
I’ve done a good amount of traveling and its pushing me to want to improve myself and better myself. I’m currently lost, because I’m stuck in being in a routine of just going home and going to work. I will change it because routine kills and adventure is out there.
What I defitneitly do want is to just wake up one day knowing that someone knows I’m here to lend them help :). This site has helped a lot. Especially when venting and also knowing that a lot of you will read it or semi read it. And if you did get to this point, I want to say, thank you! I would also like to say that, Even the strongest storms have to come to an end one day. So just keep pushing forward and instead of resisting the storm, learn to be one with it!