I did my first attempt today..

Today I attempted to kill myself by overheating in the car. I drove to school, parked in the lot and didn’t get out. I was sitting in there for over an hour and a half. The only reason why I’m here now was because my best friend saved me. I texted him as I was sitting in the car telling him about how much I was sorry and how I appreciated him a lot for all he has done. I was practically telling him goodbye.. He got worried (I think as any other great friend would do in this situation) and asked me were I was at.. I promised to tell him if he didn’t call the authorities.. which he promised in the end. Long story short, he found me and took me out to get sheetz so I could replenish all the water that I had lost within that hour and a half attempt.. we talked then he took me to my parents house to explain what happened. My mom got angry (because I’m guessing that’s how she expressed her concern and didn’t understand what was going on) but after my friend, me and my mom all talked.. we were all fine..

I almost took my life because of how lonely I’ve felt althrought my 20 years of being alive. I envied those who had so many friends to help them. I wished I had that. But I guess I’m blind to see that even thought I don’t have many people to talk to I have one friend who would do anything for me..