I don’t know what to do. I’ve never felt so lost in my life.
My ex boyfriend broke up with me two weeks ago. Because we lived together, I had to move out. Two days ago, I found out I was pregnant. When I told him about it, he stormed out and basically told me he wants nothing to do with any of it.
I’m so miserable. I wake up and go to bed every night miserable and I don’t see a logical path of it getting any better. Last night was the closest I’ve ever come to killing myself. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I didn’t have the right tools to do so. I desperately want my old life back and I know it’s never going to happen.
Now I feel like I’m just waiting to die. If I killed myself, I’d hurt my family so I’m not going to do that. But I honestly don’t see things ever getting any better and I’ve just lost all will to live. I wish more than anything that a car would hit me or that I could wish myself out of existence.
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Well, you’re carrying another life within you. You never know… Maybe that’s the key to your happiness
I am very much against parents living through their children.
A child is an person in its own right. Not some depression cure for its parents.
*a person
Wholeheartedly agree. I have been trying to find a way to say that. Thank you.
Why haven’t you sought professional help?
You should kill yourself. It’s not as bad as you think.
Fuck you. You’re such a massive POS.
While what you wrote made me angry, I apologise for how I worded it. That was out of line. But please don’t tell other users to kill themselves.
Sounds like you have your whole life ahead of you. Don’t waste your precious time dwelling.
I wasted 10 years and counting and I feel like such a fool.
At least you are physically able to work and do something for yourself and your baby.
Where do you live? I will try to help you, if I can but I have no money, I live at my mom’s and I have a spinal injury that prevents me from working…. but, I do have my time that I can offer to you and your baby…. I could give you support and try to help you move forward… babysit your child and always have an ear to lend.