Giving Up

I am so ready to give up. I feel like everything is going to boil over like a pot of water left on the stove. I feel like my heart already has the burnt marks of scorched popcorn bag. I hate the fact that I allowed so many people to come into my life just to use and abuse me. I’m not going to ask why because I realize and accept my full responsibility. I know that people can do what I allow them to do. I always wonder why I was so dumb. Why I couldn’t see what I now see. Why was it hard? They were pretending to want me around, they were pretending to want my friendship, pretending to value me. I hate a liar, and pretending is essentially the same ass lying. Why not just leave me how you found me? What was wrong with me before you entered my life proclaiming that you were my knight in shining armor, here to protect me against all of the evil in the world? What happened to never hurting me? What happened to being there for me? What happened to never leaving me? I trusted you, and you let me down. I gave you every piece of me and you broke me down into pieces of nothing.