i agree. most people are shallow, especially men. not sure why though. the shallowness of most disgusts and saddens me… and i can’t help but believe that this is all happening by design. i don’t believe humanity has always been this shallow.
Training like a madman (17k pushups with 45 lb in a month, etc.) but that was before I was beyond emasculated. Now nothing gives me meaning. 5 years of emasculation.
Art, especially playing the piano or writing. Creating a world where I m not a loser and were I have a purpose, where things have a deep meaning and a strange and mysterious beauty inside them. Because I m stronger then, I m less than normal I m a dysfunctional, whining, PTSD, suicidal kind of girl but I m also something more because I have experienced so many things, been so many different characters, settings and plots that I have a always my head full of ideas waiting for the day were I feel better to be real
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i agree. most people are shallow, especially men. not sure why though. the shallowness of most disgusts and saddens me… and i can’t help but believe that this is all happening by design. i don’t believe humanity has always been this shallow.
I agree
Your Chang in where you get happiness from. Just allow your self to see koy in anything g and you be happier..
Were we more or less shallow when we had the concept of nobility by birth, and witch-burning was a thing?
Training like a madman (17k pushups with 45 lb in a month, etc.) but that was before I was beyond emasculated. Now nothing gives me meaning. 5 years of emasculation.
Art, especially playing the piano or writing. Creating a world where I m not a loser and were I have a purpose, where things have a deep meaning and a strange and mysterious beauty inside them. Because I m stronger then, I m less than normal I m a dysfunctional, whining, PTSD, suicidal kind of girl but I m also something more because I have experienced so many things, been so many different characters, settings and plots that I have a always my head full of ideas waiting for the day were I feel better to be real