I hate my body

i have a skin problem as well. i occasionally pick at my fingers, mainly thumbs. i used to be insanely bad about it, but somehow, i don’t pick like before. unfortunately, it’s left scarring, which i’ve been painfully insecure about. so insecure to the point of trying to conceal it with makeup and even permanent body art, which hasn’t helped at all. it’s led me to believe that trying to conceal your insecurities is actually counter-productive. i understand that some people have the same problem, except, it’s on their face. i haven’t met too many skin pickers in my life, but it is unusual, and to be insecure about such is even more unusual. pretty sure this was hereditary. i read this book titled “Skin Picking: The Freedom to Finally Stop” by Annette Pasternak and Tammy Fletcher. it was a good read and it actually helped!

and i know what you mean about improving ones life! i feel that too! like… having the will do it, but it’s like, you just can’t seem to get yourself going. it’s like something’s holding you back. i think it’s ultimately fear that we allow to grip us, and i think the more we coward into it, the tighter the hold.

i think it stems down to positive energy though. i think it’s like a domino effect/connect-the-dots kind of thing. you have to start with something. anything. even if it’s something as simple as starting each day off with a glass of water. i think you have to ween out negative influences in your life, this includes people, of course, and really try to focus on the positive, but i understand that’s hard to do in such a messy world like this.