I really hate my body. I’m not fat, I’m not too ugly, I’m just covered with scars and a I hate it when I sweat. I actually hate my skin. I’m only 19 and I should be beautiful at this age. I can resist my stretch marks because almost everyone has them so they are natural but I can’t stand my scars. My body is full of those red things. They first appeared the first time I shaved my body hair and now they are everywhere on my hands and legs. I used to have tones of acnes on my face and now they’re gone but instead I have this stupid brown-red scars. It’s all my fault. I used to squeeze them because it felt really good. I still do it because it feels good, No matter how I know that I’ll hate my skin after doing it and how I know that it will get better if I don’t do it. I hate my body and it’s my fault and I can’t help it. What am I going to do?
I can stop squeezing them, I can go to the gym for couple of months and I will have the perfect body that I used to have. I can study a little bit. All I need to do to be able to love myself is to put some tiny little effort on my life and become active a little bit. I have all the facility, I KNOW I CAN live better and be really satisfied with myself.
I just don’t do it.
And I don’t know why.
I sit somewhere and I don’t do anything. I am mad at me to be such a lazy person. I hate making zero progress because of doing nothing.