It’s been a long time. I thought I was doing better however I have not been better I’ve just been drowning my thoughts with liquor. Dumbass, I was cut free for three months yet tonight I decided it was the only way to relieve the pain. I hurt I hate I am just done. I can’t keep going on like this. I currently have the face of a monster, many ask what happened? I truthfully have no idea I’m just bruised and battered all over my face and have no idea where the bruises and markings came from (thanks jack Daniels) but I won’t blame the liquor for my problems because the liquor doesn’t poor itself down my throat I choose to drink it and I’m an idiot. A self loathing fool who will never learn. Why am I even making this post? I don’t know. Cause I’m at my wits end. Cause I can’t find the strength to carry on. Cause I’m just done feeling this way. Well thanks for reading. Until next time. Hope you’re all ok.