So lost…

Have you ever realized you don’t fit in anywhere? You can’t because something keeps holding you back. You just don’t belong anywhere. I confuse everybody. If you seen my life, how I was raised, you would be surprised. How my life doesn’t, can’t add up to me having a suicide obsession. I can’t even belong on this website, I’m not supposed to be here. But I can’t belong in the life I have either. A rare case I have in which I would confuse therapists or anyone I talk to for help. Nothing adds up right. I keep it all hidden, because even the very little things I tell my friends or family they get very confused. It’s stupid if you know my story. I’m 16 and I know if I continue with life, one day I may actually succeed with my addiction. I have no reason to live and nothing to regret if I die. I keep telling myself I’m a coward for attempting but never committing suicide. I keep telling myself there’s people that have it worse than you. There’s no purpose for my life to be here, no reason for this post to be up. I know what’s best, and it’s best if I go and never come back.