Denial

Have you ever had a remission? Well that happened to me for about 8 months. Problem is, I got in trouble with my school and failed my year at college. So I forced myself to think I was okay, I am no longer depressed I ll manage. First I got stomach aches. Tjen I had suicidal thoughts now and then. Then I started to sleep 12 hours a day. Then I realised whatever I do during a day I m always exhausted. Then I lost appetite and 7 pounds in two weeks ( I weigh a bit less than a 100…). Then I cut myself, then I had panic attacks and then only I told myself: you re back in hell, no denial possible