I’ve been depressed for years, and sometimes I’ll go through periods of my life, where I feel like I’m happy, or as close to it as I can understand.
How often do you feel free from depression and suicidal thoughts?
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Depends on what I’m doing, my level of physical pain, and if I have anyone lording some absurd set of expectations over me like a sword of Damocles. If my time is mine to do with as I wish, and I have something to do with that time for my own enjoyment and not because someone is paying me to do it, it’s not hard to remember the lunatic I really am and recall what it’s like to enjoy being alive.
It doesn’t get better, it just gets different. The difference is key. I just keep walking forward. One foot gently in front of the other.
I look back and way back there…next to that grove of cedar trees is where I was, it is shaded and has streaks of pink from the setting sun.
In front of me, well that is the real puzzle isn’t it? I keep walking and some days it is color or music. Today it was 300 songbirds parting at my feet as I walked toward a cliff.
nope. even when i feel like im happy, theres the voices that knock me back down.
I feel a lot better when I am not home but in some sort of shelter. With no plans to go back home. I always end up back at same shitty home though.
I feel that way camping. Me, endless wilderness, a cooler of ice, and enough wood to keep the fire just the right amount of OMFG IT’S HOT.
I hope so
Yes, it does.