Yeah.. I uh.. I have started drinking beer. 4% of alcohol, but it still counts. I know. I f*cked up really badly. So badly that my only true friend threatens me that she’ll abandon me, just like that, if I don’t stop. I somehow find a way to f*ck up everything I can.. I just wish I f*cking killed myself when I had the chance to.. I just don’t want this life anymore.. I am only alive right now, because if I killed myself, my only true friend would too. Only because of that. No other reason. If it wasn’t for her I’d be dead by now. But now she’s telling me she’ll abandon me if I don’t stop doing something that helps me. Well f*ck everything. I know I’m only 14 years old and that I shouldn’t drink but who the f*ck cares anyways. Now I just want to get drunk, take all the sleeping pills I have, and just fall asleep. And never wake up.
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Better stop being a cry baby if you want your friend. You probably don’t have enough sleeping pills to die from do you ought not take. You’re too young, but in the end, it is completely your life to choose
what is your friend mad at you about?
Idk if you’re still here but if you ever go for it don’t go for the pills it never works or should I say 1/1000 chances if not less.
But first of all write everything down and see what you can fix and what you can not, undoubtedly most of them are fixable.
Now now I’m not telling you do to this or that, you do whatever you see fit.