I met with a friend today, she said such nice things to me. Thank you. But that’s not the reason I’m doubting.
My father told me he loves me and wants me to study my desired career, and he would give me all his support. So now I’m doubting, and doubt makes me scared. Is this the last attempt of “god” to tie me to this life? I know it’s a trap, things will be bad in the future. Things are really bad now.
I love him, I don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna live either. I’m scared I won’t have enough time to finish everything until tomorrow. I dont wanna do this to him, not now that he has shown me kindness. But I can’t postpone it either, I must do it.
I lost a lot of time because of all the drama my mother made. She’s the source of all my problems. She’s the one that hates me and made my life a living hell since day one.
I don’t know what to do, I’m cornered, I’m so stressed.
But today was a good day nonetheless.
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I’ve no right telling you not to kill yourself, when I am here for similar reasons, but if you are not 100% sure, then I would ask that you postpone it until you’ve decided whether or not suicide is the right option for you.
By all means, make whatever preparations you deem necessary, but don’t make a rash decision.
I wish you nothing but success, regardless of what path you take, and many more good days should you decide not to end your life.