Find method

When I found out that I have perfect method right under my nose whole time now. I feel like I want to burst out laugh in joy. I am relieved. I find a way to take myself out when time come. When that worse moment happens, I would be very glad to take whole of it in my mouth and swallow. I am ready. I don’t want deal with this emptiness any longer with anyone I give my heart to. I refuse to do that again. I am ready to stop all of it. I don’t care.