HomeGeneralI was innocent andn believed in the goodness of people. Then suddenly I was MADE aware of reality. How do u deal when u don t even want to live ?
Imagine u r playing with gijoes or Barbie dolls one minute and pretending to be a hero or princess. U believe in the goodness of people and trust without fear. Imagine you are still attached to rubbing silk between your fingers or clinging to that bear or blanket. Now imagine u r expected to live as an adult but u literally didn’t live and learn so u r 30+ but still have that innocence. You are literally just a child despite your age. Then imagine u get raped. Suddenly u r MADE aware of all the evils in the world. Rape, murder, abuse happens. And it happened to u. How do you live in a world like that. How do you continue fighting when you are so far behind every one else that just getting along without that or struggling to appear normal is impossible because no one understands u may be 30+ but u r literally still trying to learn to live in reality (not the world where things always have a happy ending) and let go of silkies or that special bear. Let alone when you don t even want to live to begin with. When you have to go from that to I was raped and reality is rape, murder and innocence being destroyed violently is just part of life.
I think you take little steps to assimilate that knowledge into your world.
Bad things of this type have always happened, and are likely to do so as long as we exist.
But they happen alongside a bunch of good things in the same time.
Loss of innocence doesn’t mean a loss of everything good. Might be harder when you don’t want anything to begin with, but a change of awareness and bad events can’t change that.
I can tell you that I don’t know what it’s like to be a girl and a virgin when getting raped…. But I do know that it (I don’t want to say what I feel like saying ) up your world and in your case I’m sure it’s it was much worse than for me. I wish I could take that away. Make it disappear for you and me both.
Your right. I know. Loss of innocence doesn’t mean etc. But so suddenly let alone when it happens to begin with makes it kinda hard to assimilate a little at a time. Suddenly you can’t help but see all the bad in the world. For everyone. I don’t want to see the suffering the hardships the evils of this world let alone feel it
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I think you take little steps to assimilate that knowledge into your world.
Bad things of this type have always happened, and are likely to do so as long as we exist.
But they happen alongside a bunch of good things in the same time.
Loss of innocence doesn’t mean a loss of everything good. Might be harder when you don’t want anything to begin with, but a change of awareness and bad events can’t change that.
I was raped as a virgin I understand your pain. When I was hospitalized although I was not suicidal at the time, I was followed home
I can tell you that I don’t know what it’s like to be a girl and a virgin when getting raped…. But I do know that it (I don’t want to say what I feel like saying ) up your world and in your case I’m sure it’s it was much worse than for me. I wish I could take that away. Make it disappear for you and me both.
Your right. I know. Loss of innocence doesn’t mean etc. But so suddenly let alone when it happens to begin with makes it kinda hard to assimilate a little at a time. Suddenly you can’t help but see all the bad in the world. For everyone. I don’t want to see the suffering the hardships the evils of this world let alone feel it