Broken

How can I be that stupid person. How can I attract people who only use me. No one comes in my life to love me. It’s not fair. I do so much. I give my all. But there’s always someone more better. More pretty. He’s never going to love me the way he seems to love every other girl he meets. Fuckkkkk??? God please send someone in my life who will love me and iviie. Love us as a priority and not as a anchor that’s holding them back from living there life. God please I’m asking you. I’m begging you I’ve been everything you wanted me to be. Honest…and faithful but why do you keep doing this to me. Everytime. Is it because you just dont think I deserve happiness. Every guy that came in my life always wind up fucking me up more than how I was when they met me. How can this keep happening to me. What do I have to do? To be enough for somebody. I’m failing in every part of my life. As a mother. A friend. Sister. A human. Sometimes I just wanna disappear no one would even miss me. My heart is so broken and trying to find the pieces to make it whole again is useless. Is there even a purpose for me being here??????