I keep drifting towards any and all ledges I see. Anywhere I go all I see are opportunities to kill myself.
I can’t seem to get that final push. I need to kill myself. Not want, need. There is nothing left for me here anymore.
Help me. Tell me how to get past that final fear barrier.
Cheers.
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I feel the same, but that cheers at the end :,)
Need. Need because you know what you face if you dont? You need a surefire method, then ypu need to just do it. This post is not from someone serious about it. You are just entertaining the idea.
Cheers
Think of it like this, my longing for death doesn’t derive from pain as much as it does from fear of pain. So, basically, I have been through 2 years of depressive episodes involving a high amount of self-harm (cutting, burning etc.). At that time I was not sure enough to actually commit suicide. Now I am a lot better, but I know, for sure, that in less than half a year’s time, I would be in the same place I was then. So I would prefer to end it now, rather than then. Suicide for me, as of now, is a more logical choice than an emotional one.
In my opinion it takes a wild idgaf mind set… not Necessary going about it in an impulsively way unless the timing is right…but being completely numb minded about it.. depending on the method i would imagine different ones can intimidate at different levels.. I suppose you just can’t care about your life when you’re trying to end it..
I get you. I drive past this huge tree everyday on the way back from class and I can picture the twisted metal of my car wrapped around it like a shiny ribbon. The gift of peace wrapped up so beautifully, but I am terrified it goes horribly wrong and I just end up being an even bigger burden than I already am.
I couldnt have put it better myself.
🙁
can i help
change your mind about all this
instead
?
It’s easy once you detach from the weird