I am 36, soon to be 37. I am lonely, and there is nobody on this planet that I am compatible with. I meet all sorts of people, and while I am attracted to many, I realize that they are not attracted to me. The only thing that runs through my head is how I stack up with their past lovers, and I don’t stack up well. I literally have nothing to offer. It is time that evolution follow its natural course and kill off the weaker genes, mainly mine. The most value I can provide this world is to donate my organs. I am literally worth more as the individual chemicals in my body than I am as the sum product.
I wish I had the courage to kill myself, but I don’t.
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Sorry to hear about how you feel, I’m feeling very close to killing myself, but lack courage.
What kind of methods have you thought about?
Sometimes I wish I had no family so nobody would miss me.
If it’s any comfort, you have achieved much more in life than I have, and I’m 34 and grew up super privileged. (That was more in reference to your earlier post.)
I can relate, even though people treat me well, I struggle so bad with relationships and I feel so unworthy of relationships with the people I am attracted to. So tend to fall back on whoever will have me. Which is not something to scoff at. Actually just beginning to realise how much people like that have given me. People I took for granted.
Anyhow, you sound like you need not just romance, but friends, friends who will be there too see you through the ups and downs of dating.
Rooting for you. You sound great. I hope you choose to stay in this world.