I really don’t have anyone to talk with anymore, that can under my situation. I feel like I will be all alone if I continue with this life. I have my cheap method, but some side effects of it are holding me back. I am so close to death. Feeling sad in bed on a Saturday.
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I can relate a bit. Feel like I’ve wasted my youth and it’s too late to start over. Also at home on a Saturday night.
Hugs
@spreject Thanks for the hugs, if you want to chat, I’m still available. Hugs
that’s exactly how I feel
me too
Responding to the truth of others, after having lived our own truth, is incredibly challenging. It has to count, and perhaps now more than ever.
Sure, I can tell you that you can always talk to someone, that you’re never alone, that I understand, that it gets better, and/or for you to not give up; however, even those statements can have unintended, adverse, effects.
So, in your unique, beautifully human, situation I feel the most impactful thing that I can say to you is: ‘A change in perspective can change your life.’ No more. No less.
Perhaps give that some thought? You may be surprised by the possibilities that follow.
I’m feeling sad this Saturday too.
I’m thinking of using a cheap method too. I can’t go on like this.
It’s been so dificult.
In times of despair…
Think not of the difficulties which have brought you to where you find yourself today, but rather think to the future where you can find comfort & happiness in seeing how much stronger a person you will have become because of it all.
I’m scared of what my future could bring, that is one of the reasons I think of killing myself.
@definitelyworried I wish that all your worries would go away, I want you to live.
I would never tell you to think about what the future may bring. It’s silly to worry about things which you have little control of in the grand scheme of things.
To rephrase what I was trying to say…
Find comfort in everything you stand to gain as an individual, which extends beyond imagination, simply by allowing yourself to overcome this seemingly unimaginable situation that you currently find yourself within.
@wickedapparition yeah, I just want to go and be done with the shame of not being who I usw to be. @definitelyworried sorry that you are feeling sad too. My father wasn’t in my life much, so this father’s day doesn’t mean much. My mom and grandma are going to a relative’s birthday party, while they are gone would be the prefect.
My pain today right now is unbearable.
Sorry for complaining this much I just don’t know what to do.
@definitelyworried I don’t feel like you are complaining, we’re just having a conversation. I yold my grandma that I might not be here, meaning alive when she gets back from the party and she told me to jump in front of car.
Firstly… There is absolutely zero shame associated with living one’s life.
That applies to everyone; always. Sure… we may find ourselves in a place we didn’t anticipate, or that we’re not necessarily proud of, but you can’t name one individual that has existed that hasn’t lived that truth at some point in their lives. So again… there is absolutely zero shame associated with living one’s life!
Secondly… DD NOT EVER allow yourself to become complacent with the person you have become, because that in and of itself means that you have given up on betterment for yourself, and your life.
Complacency is Living Suicide. Celebrate the fact that you’ve chosen to try, and if things don’t work out as planned… simply try something else.
The only thing stopping you is… you.
@wickedapparition my life is not repairable.
She said to jump in front of the car, did she know what you meant?
@definitelyworried yes, she is either wicked or crazy, maybe both. She is abusive too, especially to my mom because I’ve kind of shut down now.
My mom is kind of the same way. Honestly I think my mom could be one of the reasons why I want to kill myself, she never let me grow, she played mind games with me.
I don’t know I can’t blame it on anyone, but I think I am going to end up killing myself pretty soon here.
My mom is kind of the same way.
I don’t want to kill myself but I feel that I have to.
It’s weird to explain.
But I feel it’s the only way to escape this pain.
@definitelyworried wish that life didn’t have to be this cruel. I want to die but I don’t want to use my method.
My method is hanging,
What is your method, with out going into detail, unless you don’t want to say or maybe on forumjar?
Formjar
Ok
I’m on suicide methods forumjar
Suicide Method Statistics –
Hanging
Rank: 9th
Lethality: 89.5%
Time: 7 min.
Agony (0-100): 25.5
Thanks for sharing with me I’ll look up the details.
Too bad I’m at work right now, I’m really hating it right now I wish I could talk a bit longer, because you are one of the few people that might know how I feel.
I hope we can talk a little later if we are both up?
Wow, your mom does sound like my grandma a little bit, she plays mind games too.
Ree you up?
Yes
Good to hear from you.
Such a difficult time for me.
Your method seems painful.
Are u still planning on using that method?
We’re not talking methods.