How did my mind get so dark?
How do I keep disappointing everyone?
Why do they say those things?
Why do I say those things?
Who is the dark cloud hovered above me?
Who will I be once the cloud swallows me whole?
When will this go away?
When will I feel happiness?
What will happen if I go?
What will happen if I stay?
Where will I go?
Where will I be?
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Worrying about being engulfed by darkness. Wondering when your feelings will be able to change, and if you’ll feel happiness in the future. Then the confusion and uncertainty about what to do and where you’ll end up… Definitely relatable for a lot of people.
Two things I’d like to single out. One being disappointing others. The person you should be most worried about disappointing is yourself, not everyone else. Try to not let people down, sure. But you need to keep to your own ideals above the rest. Two, is your mind being dark. Just because it got dark doesn’t mean it has to be.
Again, I’m interested in hearing stories. The “why do I/they say those things” bit, hints at a mixture of regret and pain. Maybe senseless pain.
An interesting read.
I don’t know if the “what, when, why” thoughts ever fully cease.
You could guess on the possibilities for years, but is it going to make a difference?