Future is predictableeeee

Even though we’re not together . I think good for him . But sometimes i feel betrayed and lost in thoughts . This was an imagination of my thoughts where i visit my ex marriage .  I can’t get back same time feared of getting int

A fine day. My ex-lover’s wedding ceremony is about to begin.He invited me to it.
Although I was not sure if I should attend, it is a testament to his character and the respect he has for me that he would extend such an invitation.
It also speaks to the strength of the bond we once shared and the memories we have together. The person I carved into my veins is getting married.
I try every day to stop loving and building walls around my heart. But still, I feel my emotions for him linger, no matter how hard I try to move on.
But he will be another girl’s man of dreams. I still feel a longing for him, though I know the reality is that he will never be mine.

I came in a black saree with a black stone choker around my neck and loose hair and some small amount of mallipoo. I am not a herione but i was the azhaghu of my
satisfaction and was way more elegant .
I am successful in my life, but I don’t want a companion, so I am staying alone.All our classmates showed up and spoke happily.
Everyone was settled in life.

Seeing him on stage with another woman was a sight to behold.As tears filled my eyes, I tried to hide them from everyone.
I tried to stay strong and not let my emotions take control, but I couldn’t help but feel a wave of sadness wash over me.
A friend of mine asked if you still loved him. For me, it was never a case of not loving him anymore.It has never been an option for me to stop.
I love him as much as I ever have, and that feeling will never change.I tried to let him leave.
But all I could think about was my smile in the morning and my laughs at night. He was the reason for that.
Everyone will have difficult days, but the good always outweighs them. In spite of everything I said I will never forgive him for what he did.
But still, seeing him on his big day makes me more emotional, and I miss him more than ever.After all the lies and everything he faked, I still miss him.
Everything he did to me is always on my mind.I ended up in a toxic relationship because I didn’t stand up for myself early when a red flag occurred,
so I am a big reason for this mess.

Then, as the marriage is about to start, The sound is like ringing in my heart and mind.
I can’t tolerate it, but I try my utmost to hide my emotion and hold it. I got a stare from him before the moment he was going to tie the mangalyam.
A deadly stare. I feel the kadhalar dhinam bgm goin in my head with the happy memories of us together .
He can fucking feel all the emotions i hold in that stare and the same rewind of tthose memories we shared.
It maybe less but it outweighs the most.. Hearing all the sounds around me, I get suffocated by that atmosphere.
I ran away from that place. I can’t see him and her together. It was ripping my heart from my chest. I went out but heard the sound of the marrige getting over.
At that moment I decided of not seeing him anymore in my life .
Everyone planned to book a resort for their honeymoon . So as a group gift they decided to present and i too gave money for that expense .
So i went without saying to anyone …….. As they are saivam i didnt eat too lol ……

First love is nothing less to forget .