I am not sure what to write or how to describe how I am feeling. why do I keep trying to cover up the scrapes with band-aids. The depression came along and then the anxiety trailed in after it. then the PTSD showed up to grab my hand. I wish I did not have to feel the way I do, I let the thoughts and the pain drown me.
I can’t think straight, all I want to do is numb the pain, all I want to do is wash it all away.
I really wish I could better describe how I am feeling right now. I probably will just sleep and continue covering up the scrapes with band-aids.
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Hey soup, i have an email from you in 2012! We just can’t stay away huh?
Well it’s only natural/instinctual to want to find comfort and heal yourself after being hurt, but I guess after being hurt numerous times you’d rsther just give up, and that’s sad. 🙁
Understandable yeah, but still sad…