I hate myself. I hate my face, my body, my hair, all of me. I hate how I can’t be like other people. I feel so insecure with what others have. I hate how weak my body is. I got admitted to the hospital thrice last year and twice this year. I had gastritis and PCOS. I also had undergone check ups for my scoliosis. I’ve had many examinations and I’m still continuing my medicine. I feel sorry for my family especially my Mom. We had been struggling financially due to schooling and my medication. These past few days, I’ve been suffering from pain in my upper abdomen, had migraine and lowblood. I also had difficulty in breathing. But I didn’t told anyone because I don’t want to be a burden.
Why can’t I do something good? I always dissapoint myself and my family. I was always a loser.
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Agreed. I despise my appearance, too. It isn’t my fault that I was born this way. Shit.
don’t hate yourself. appearance doesn’t mean anything. if anything, good appearance brings expectations. see, i’m expected to have a beautiful girlfriend, lots of friends, because I look good and smart. yet, i’ve hated my life for as long as i can remember. i don’t have any hobbies besides doing drugs in my room. i haven’t been out with a friend for years. I don’t have anyone. and it’s kiling me everytime my family asks about it.
don’t envy other people. you are yourself and there’s no changing that. even the ones who you think have a great life, might not actually have that great of a life.
people are born the way they are. some are strong, some are born frail and prone to weakness. there’s no changing that. if your problem is something that can’t be changed, then there is no need to dwell on it. move on.
you are a burden to no one. let your family take care of you. that’s why they’re here.