The story of a retarded teenager

Hey there,

I would like to share with you the story of a retarded teenage boy, now young adult, who is long overdue comitting suicide.

Once upon a time, there was a teenage boy. He was just 13 years old, and he liked a girl, like most teenage boys would already.

But even though he liked that girl, he never interacted with her in order to get her attention and possibly affection, like most teenage boys did.So he ended up going to a different highschool than the girl ,and missed his chance. Because of his retarded shyness, he missed his chance.

After that, he was in highschool,  where of course most other students already have or had a girlfriend already. But he didn’t.In his first year he wasnt very popular, because of his shyness. Interaction with girls was minimal, and he would only get teased by a 4th year girl, who was set up by his brother.But he was still young. At 15 years age there is still alot of time to get a girlfriend. So time went on…

Altough this teenager was clearly retarded, he had a keen sense with people’s feelings. Later on, from his class, he had a few girls who had a crush on him. The teenage boy wasn’t conceited in believing this fact, because his suspicions were confirmed by other classmates. But this teenage boy had another grave dissability. He would only go out with a girl he really really liked, like one that would make his face fall off from her beauty and gentleness. But although he was a somewhat unique specimen, he also had a more common trait. He was very shy around really beautiful girls. So, wanting a really beatuiful girl but being unable to do anything in her presence… What a retarded situation for the poor teenage boy.

But then, something odd happened…It was 31st December, and the teenager had no plans for a New Year’s night. So his brother invited him to a private party, made out of only 6 people at theiraunt’s house who was gone abroad.  The teenager boy gladly accepted, and went to party with his older brother.

At the party there were 2 couples and 2 single people, the teenager and another girl. The teenager, finding himself surrounded by people he didn’t know, only his brother who was mostly with his girlfriend, was too shy to interact with them and just drank his beer. But then, the girl approached him and placed herself on his lap and kissed him deeply. The night went on with dancing, drinking, kissing, hugging…It was a miracle of New Year’s eve for the 16 year old teenager. The day after, walking with the girl before parting ways, the girl made a serious look and said “I hope this wasn’t just an advdenture for you, because I want it to be serious”. The teenager promtply agreed that it wasn’t just an adventure, so they parted ways.

After a few weeks of barely any contact, the girl called the teenage boy and asked him to go at the local park. When they met, the teenage boy was very nervous, because he had no expierence.After talking for a bit, out of nowhere the girl said “I kissed another guy the other day”. The teenager was mortified, and couldn’t say anything. He just stood there, like a retard would, not saying anything. After that, he left the park and forgot the whole thing. Much later in life, now an adult, he realized how retarded he was. Not calling her for many days, not behaving like a normal boyfriend would. Of course she cheated on him!

A year later, when he was close to 18 years old, still in highschool, the teenage boy found someone. Someone who was….jaw-droppingly beautiful. It made his heart pound just seeing her. It’s a feeling that can’t be easily described in words.Every day he saw her, he felt both ecstatic and sad. Every class course was filled with thoughts about her and the longing to be with her. A 16 year old girl, who seemed like she could just be the one…the one he always wanted.

Of course, being such a gorgeous girl, he never had the courage to talk to her, although he tried. But then something unforgivable happened… After finishing classes, the teenager was heading home. Stepping down the stairs, he saw the girl…who was looking right at him. Then out of nowhere the girl started talking to him “Hey, are you X’s brother?” The teenager got so flustered he just answered with a yes and left immediatly. She was trying to talk with him and HE REFUSED TO.  The gorgeous girl who he liked so much, had all these feelings for, talked to him and he refused to…What else can you call that person but a retarded one? Nothing else…Just a retarded teenager…

I would like to end this as a part 1. If I don’t kill myself, maybe I will write a part 2.

Hope you enjoyed the story of this retarded teenager, who is obviously me, and hang in there.