The story of how I came to this world is as tragic as my life itself. When my parrents met my father was a 30 year old weird sociopath, loser virgin when he met my mother who at the time was 20 year old university student with depression and very low self asteem so she thought noone else would ever want her. They got together, condom broke and 9 months later even greater loser was born. A year later my parrents split up.
Im just the same as my father exept he manages to love himself despite still living with his mom in his fiftys, and working minimum wage job at the post office (even tho he has a degree as engineer). Meanwhile I just hate myself. If I were in his place I would kill myself years ago. He is religious so maybe thats the way to cope with life for him. (dont get me wrong I still love him and everything, but this is just the way I feel)
Perhaps one day I will find a girl with low enaugh self asteem to give me a chance too but I feel that kinda fked up person would not rly want to exist anyway so whats te point.
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i never had a problem getting a boyfriend but i hid everything. there was one that i didnt hid from completely but i feel that i hurt him and he didnt deserve me so i left him. we still talk and now i dont really hide at all. actually i confide in him. ill message him and say how i want to die and i hate life. but a part from him i have my fiance and he puts up with A LOT. i try to break up with him constantly. im almost always pissed off at something st**id and random. i dont really talk to him about my depression but im getting better at it. theres someone out there it just takes time to find them.
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I’m sorry you were born to a loser… sounds like your father is really not a fit human.. maybe better off dead like you said, but I am of no higher judgement or power. I am probably like him as well, in character not of relations, but I know better. Christ is not the answer for a loser taking up space.