2 days I felt better than I have in over a year. But I know myself too well. This crash will be bad. I’m scared. Terrified of how bad I will get. But right now I feel good.
“Will this be the time that it sticks?”
No. I can’t let myself believe or hope. I stopped doing that a while ago. After enough crashes I learned. I always fall back down.
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when i feel good which is very rare i am trying not to think about tomorrow. enjoy. maybe it will last a little longer. you never know! :))
and i am really glad that you are feeling good!
Careful not to get into the habit of sabotaging yourself due to the unfamiliar, frightening feeling of being better for a while.