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by niladri54321

i dont know how to say this but failure always been part of my life.been following this page for 4 years n it gives me strength to survive this harsh world.

i m stuck. all my friends r moving forward n i feel like i m the only one no one gaves a damn my friend started ignoring me i guess bcoz they have jobs n i m still in college have tried to kill myself but i m a coward bcoz i dont want to lose my life like this all i have known is” giving up is not an option” no matter how hard the situation become n all this strenth i have i got it from my momma. i dont have a girlfriend i have no frineds n i m stuck in my life. i dont know what future holds im 24 n i dont know how much more i have to wait to compleate my MBA n to get a job i dont even know how many bad days i have to see n my parents have to suffer for me . i try my best in studies but i dont know how it naver stisfy me i have failed many times bcoz my teacher dont want me to pass my exam but i havent given up i have tried my best n i have cleared my exams withs good numbers. but i still leaves in fear of exam failure i dont know how many failures awaites for me .i dont want anymore failure i jst want to complete my studies n  get a job n lead a normal life but my life my fate have never been by my side it hits me evry time. but i hope every things gonna be okay one day  this hope keeps me alive.hope i havent made u feel bored.

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Yikrens 8/26/2018 - 2:20 pm

The Lack of Structure made me Uncomfortable. Holding on to own strengths should you try, there must be more that you can. Imagine, when I was headed for an unlikely Love my Motivation was the Quote: “I’m struggling, but I am doing it the best”, and, if I would know better, the Person interrupted the Plans and made a Concert where I went!

I am also disabled about Suicide. I want to have it legally or officially. I know, the urge is sometimes stronger sometimes weaker but persistent all Time. Maybe I’ll do it tomorrow, I got probably enough stuff, maybe I won’t the next year or on occasion some Guest will steal it from me and will suicide itself. Who knows?

My friends are the same, I can still try to figure it late Life. And despite reflection of 80% of People that I must be outrageous smart I didn’t made it to University!

What is about your Parents? I feel commiseration when I read such. I feel the same but they strikingly quiet about everything I care most Lifelong. Just for exposing this I’m having wet eyes and hard chest. I’m too dumb for razorblades, I have medicine to cut myself Painless but I don’t know how deep I should cut, where I should cut and at the moment I don’t own equipment to sew my skin back together, but I would if I wouldn’t knew it better cut myself for my connection to my Parents.

There are Forums to discuss education topics like yours. Try to have a intimate talk under 4 eyes with that teacher and ask if that one could give you little extra lessons. Maybe there is a Club in your school providing these contacts somehow.

I can’t do it for you. Lately I’m on very little productive like never before in my Life, but what shall happen if any expectation is missing.

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