I’m sorry.. I stopped talking because I found some things on here about you that I didn’t want to find. It was too real and it supported my accusations in the beginning.. it would still be nice to meet you but I’m not sure about a relationship, I feel like you don’t tell me enough to make me trust you completely and I turn into a different person when my trust is broken.. you would know. Maybe it could turn into something if we met but I can’t make any promises. If it’s not worth it to travel so far, you don’t have to. We can wait longer or just move on with our lives.
I believe by accusations you mean in a relationship with someone? I can’t say I can think of anything I’ve said or anyone I’ve talked to that would make you think that. I made a post to a girl named violet but i don’t think you’re referring to that because it doesn’t sound romantic to me. And in the short time i knew her, we were ever only friends. Could you please talk about it? It’ll drive me insane if i dont know what you’re referring to..
No I’m referring to older things, things that support the kind of person you are and what I thought you would and could be. Don’t get too specific because it’s not anything specific. The post probably isn’t you but it has your name and it sounds like you. That’s all I want to say.
Okay. I respect any opinion you have of me. Im definitely not the best person. You’ve mentioned before how I’d flirt with you while still being with Lily. Although it’s not something I’ve done since then, i take responsibility for my terrible actions. And I’m sure there’s more things other than that which you’ve found.
I dont know what this means for us. Reading back through your older posts, love seemed so unconditional. But back then, i was a terrible friend and love interest. Leaving constantly and not talking to you for prolonged periods of time. I feel that would be enough for anyone to lose interest in someone like me. You kinda kept around though, still there when i returned. I dont do that anymore. I’d talk to you all day if i could. But the past happened. And i take responsibility for it.
It’s the reverse now ironically. I dont really know why I try to chase you so much. After the bumpy and inconsistent year we’ve known eachother. I know there’s other people out there. But i can’t stand to consider them in the place of you. But at the same time, is that selfish? I feel like i give you more sad feelings than i do happy.. i imagine there to be a happy end for us being together. I think we could be super compatable. But “could” is never a guarantee.
Despite everything, i still like you, far too much. Im going to keep trying to make this work. Im going to keep thinking of this world of me being there next to you. Even if it’s unreasonable. Even if every time we get close to something it always slips away.
I’m just writing im sorry its probably super unorganized and clunky.
How are you? I hope you’re okay :c i miss you so dearly
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I’m sorry.. I stopped talking because I found some things on here about you that I didn’t want to find. It was too real and it supported my accusations in the beginning.. it would still be nice to meet you but I’m not sure about a relationship, I feel like you don’t tell me enough to make me trust you completely and I turn into a different person when my trust is broken.. you would know. Maybe it could turn into something if we met but I can’t make any promises. If it’s not worth it to travel so far, you don’t have to. We can wait longer or just move on with our lives.
I believe by accusations you mean in a relationship with someone? I can’t say I can think of anything I’ve said or anyone I’ve talked to that would make you think that. I made a post to a girl named violet but i don’t think you’re referring to that because it doesn’t sound romantic to me. And in the short time i knew her, we were ever only friends. Could you please talk about it? It’ll drive me insane if i dont know what you’re referring to..
No I’m referring to older things, things that support the kind of person you are and what I thought you would and could be. Don’t get too specific because it’s not anything specific. The post probably isn’t you but it has your name and it sounds like you. That’s all I want to say.
Okay. I respect any opinion you have of me. Im definitely not the best person. You’ve mentioned before how I’d flirt with you while still being with Lily. Although it’s not something I’ve done since then, i take responsibility for my terrible actions. And I’m sure there’s more things other than that which you’ve found.
I dont know what this means for us. Reading back through your older posts, love seemed so unconditional. But back then, i was a terrible friend and love interest. Leaving constantly and not talking to you for prolonged periods of time. I feel that would be enough for anyone to lose interest in someone like me. You kinda kept around though, still there when i returned. I dont do that anymore. I’d talk to you all day if i could. But the past happened. And i take responsibility for it.
It’s the reverse now ironically. I dont really know why I try to chase you so much. After the bumpy and inconsistent year we’ve known eachother. I know there’s other people out there. But i can’t stand to consider them in the place of you. But at the same time, is that selfish? I feel like i give you more sad feelings than i do happy.. i imagine there to be a happy end for us being together. I think we could be super compatable. But “could” is never a guarantee.
Despite everything, i still like you, far too much. Im going to keep trying to make this work. Im going to keep thinking of this world of me being there next to you. Even if it’s unreasonable. Even if every time we get close to something it always slips away.
I’m just writing im sorry its probably super unorganized and clunky.
How are you? I hope you’re okay :c i miss you so dearly