I tried electructing myself today but it didnt work.i poured water on a chord and stuck it in the wall even attempting to bite it at one point but nothing happened.i dont kno what im doing wrong i shouldnt have tried to kill myself today anyway as its supposed to be after my birthday this month but i figured if i got electrocuted what did i have to lose.i have to die cause im evil ive been staying up all night for the past couple nights hoping a heart attack would get me hopefully it still will cause electrocuding yourself seems like it would hurt.
First of all: Yes, electrocution sounds painful!
You say you have a different date set anyway, so maybe it’s just not that night tonight. You say, it’s gonna be after your birthday. Do you have any special plans for your birthday? It sounds like you are looking for a last “good” day here…
I told my mom im not celebrating at all but my parents are the type who will do something anyway.what im looking for is a moment to say my final words my suicide attempts usually tank anyway not.if i get.ahold of.alcohol and pills. My mom has no car all i need to do is go at a certain time when my dad takes the car so they. Cant follow me.getting money is an issue i might have to get some from her purse
Ahh, sorry to hear that not even on your birthday your wishes are accepted. They shouldn’t plan something against your will. Parents try to teach us boundaries, yet they can be so boundary-breaking themselves… You are very clever though to still use the event for your own purpose, rather than just somehow going through with it. That’s a very autonomic skill you have there. 🙂
Does your family know about your suffering?
Please don’t try electrocution. If you’re in the USA or Japan or any country with 120v power, it won’t kill you, but it can burn you and leave a lasting mark. I knew someone who bit into a power cord and all it did was leave joker scars. In other countries with 220v, it’s more lethal BUT houses have other safety measures like ground fault interruptors and circuit breakers that cut power as soon as a big spike is detected. Getting electrocuted at home is a thing of the past. So please don’t hurt yourself unnecessarily!
My family doesn’t know about my suffering ive been trying to keep it a secret from them theyve heard the story before but i don’t think my parents ever grasped the extent of the problem at least not how i feel about it and we don’t talk about it its almost like they are in denial.and no parents shouldn’t plan something against your will but they think there doing it to make me happy given the misery ive been in it may not be a bad thing to. Let them do something