Is it possible to love someone you’ve spent the entirety of your existence hating?

Fear controls me.
It dictates what I can and can’t do.
I force myself to suffer simply because I am afraid.
Fear is what drove me to suicide, fear is what made me so isolated and alone, fear is what made me push everyone away, fear is what made me give up on dreams, fear is what makes me hide away.
Fear makes me miserable.
Fear makes me numb.
Fear makes me insignificant.
Fear I instil in myself.