On the 1-to-10 scale of despair, I’m probably about a 9 right now. Much more, and I’ll be climbing up into the attic and putting a belt around my neck.
I’ve learned some very UGLY things about myself this year …. specifically my capacity for JEALOUSY. I’m pushing 60 years old, and never had I ever had to deal with JEALOUSY before. And I hate it. It shames me.
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I wish you peace in tbe way you choose to find it.
i never ever realized if jealousy was wrong but i pretty sure I’ve been jealous my entire life with my paranoid personal disorder, you must be good person to be ashamed for it but it’s natural and Normal i believe occasionally but try not to feel that bad about it, i think worst thing is envy which i had last time towards my sister and never felt so wrong and ashamed before, it’s so bad that you don’t even need to hear it’s probably into my genes and eventually others too
I hope things get better for you… But if not, I hope your exit with the belt goes smoothly and you find peace.