Lonely child

Hi pathetic male. Jinx to that. I am currently seeing my life tumbling down even worse off than I thought. I am now sitting in my country of birth and seeing everyone around me grew up, got jobs, thinking about kids on the way, and me? Fuck no. I am still living with my parents at the age of 29. I really wish i could just kill myself soon and get it over with. But I cannot do it. The only thing that keeps me here is my parents. If it wasn’t for them, i’d be out of here.

The world is just not meant for some people pathetic. It really isn’t your fault either. Some people are just born with so much deficiencies that they find it unable to cope in such a harsh world. I truly wish a place exists for people like us just to relax and migrate from this world to a place of bliss – a sort of island where people who suffered in vain their whole lives can go lay their heads down; but unfortunately, no such place exists. We are all mass produced into a Chinese factory called “Earth” and some make it and some don’t. Needing-less to say, you have to get skilled at living this life because it is a game after-all. You either win the game or you lose it. And it takes skill winning it; if you do not possess the skill, you’ll definitely end up somewhere between a rock and a hard place. And at best, winning at life is a phyrric victory; in the end, you are so damaged that you wish you never was born in the first place.