For the love of life,
but for the desire to die,
how shall we try?
I attempted suicide,
for I didn’t die just went to the psych ward or the looney bin if you prefer,
sure, I got the help I needed,
but even after that I still want to die,
for I am still uncertain about my future,
if I have a future at all, that is,
this life of mine is a living heaven and a living hell,
all on the earth also in the mind, body,
and soul if I even have a soul some of us wish for Annihilation I actually tried only once, now I am still alive this life is simple and complex however one perceives the world, that is,
for if we don’t die we can only live,
how shall I live and how shall I die for I don’t know,
that uncertainty persists.