Hi,
So today is my 20th birthday. It’s a special tho I’m not happy at all. But I guess it became the norm that it doesn’t matter anymore haha. It’s been almost 3 years since I started posting here and I really like it. All the things and thoughts that are bottled deep inside me, I keep it here and all of you gets it and knows how I feel. Knowing that all the people here are the same as me and knows how hard it is to be like this, I feel like I’m not alone. And I just want to say that I really appreciate all of you. I wish it’s the same for all of you. I’ve made another self harm today yep. Not a happy birthday to me hahahaha. My birthday wish for today is for all of us to be happy and to be free from ourselves. I wish that could happened someday. I wish…..
Sincerely,
Jhenna
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I have also self harmed. Didn’t mean too, whoops. Bad dreams again. I slammed my fists against my head, I haven’t done that since maybe last year, they leave bumps. One time I slammed my head on the concrete. I also punch holes in the walls. Now I have to pay to fix them. I do this out of frustration because my suicide date was August 1, 2012. The pain doesn’t bother me as much as having to fix this sh*t and all that doesn’t bother me as much as missing my suicide date.
Oh happy birthday by the way I didn’t see that part!!
Thank you! Not a happy birthday tho hahaha. Yeah I can relate to that. Sometimes I didn’t even realized that I self harmed again. whoopsiee. It became a habit. I also had a suicide date which is April 2, 2 years ago and here I am still breathings. sucks.
Well I’m glad you both are still here. I’m happy about it because you all still have a chance at happiness, and it’s worth it.
Happy Birthday Jhenna!
Mine was Dec 13th and sucked too but it’s really just a day.
Nothing to be happy about other than I want to be and today is a good day so far for me. I hope you can find a smile and a laugh today in the least.
@flutterby thankyou! Belated Happy Birthday to you! Yeah we have those happy days that we wish to not end but yeah, that’s how our life is. sad..
Well I hope you can stop self harming. Sorry if my comment was offensive. oh and well… its your birthday 🙂
@princessmousy3 there’s nothing offensive about your comment don’t worry haha. I do tell myself a lot to stop self harming but this is the only thing that is giving me comfort so yeah, can’t stop even if I want to