I step out today
I finally step out today !!
It feels really weird..
I sit in the foodcourt balcony
And i can see people below me
Eating laughing crying
But i feel weird
My body keep trembling on its own..
Its like a nervous feeling
But idk what exactly..
My heart feels like im riding a scary rollercoaster
Its beating fast
My head start to hurt a little bit
My stomach feels weird
What is this??
WHAT IS THIS??
It feels so wrong
I try to take a deep breath..
But it wont disappear..
What is this…
Does anyone who have depression ever feel like this too?
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Yes! I felt exactly like this on thursday. I couldnt do nothing. Not even my usual escapism of playing games or watching youtube, nothing. I was just walking around the house super anxious with suicidal thoughts goin through my head and my stomach was turning inside.
I dont have any suicidal thought at that moment..
But most everyday is a yes..
But that moment i dont have that feeling.. instead o want to step out to the light..
But what i got.. is a trembling sensation..
Im so afraid actually..
Am i really okay..
The longer we isolate, the stranger we get, and the harder it is to fit in again if at all. It’s not too late. It’s not too late I hope.