Meet me in the future
Then maybe our fate will change
Ill be happy fluffy ball that only look at you
Youll be caring sunshine that only look at me
We can be one
Like we are wished to be
Its colour life.. I wish my life can get more colour.. Yes a bright one..
Maybe this will be my second/last attempt..
I will kill myself on my birthday
If I dont go back here than..
Goodbye and Thank you
To someone that I dont know that read and comment on my post
I will leave my username and pass behind
So my fam and friends can read this suicide diary
Everything that happened to me
Everything I regret and cherish
You want to be loved but dont blink a eye about me
I guess I choose bad guy again
What make me feel alive is that i feel pain
But when the pain is too much i cant bear it anymore
You are like a drug to me
A place to escape from my crooked mind
And when the times ens
Im back to my state
I always thought i was cured
But thats so stupid it never happened
My mind gulping me inside
Once again im blind
I give you all i have, its not nuch but its the last piece i can give you
My last heart smile and wjat we called feelings
With you I feel loved and pleasures in momentary
Im sorry its my fault
I start this so i should end this too
The times finally come
Shouldnt believe it
Shouldnt try to live better
Shouldnt try to taste happiness and love
Should just stay here in the dark
So i can protect myself more
Amd let the dark emgulf me
And when i cant hold myself anymore
Let this hand amd breath decide what to do
Shoyld be easier to die
I will try to go back to me who get used to alone lonely in the dark
I wont try again to search for light
Ill be here the space that i shouldnt let someone interfere
Im gonna let myself back
I think thay will be better
So oneday i can kill myself without regret or thonking anymore
Me? Loks like i will never find what is love
No one loves me
I realize it when you said that
Let me die in pain
Let ne remember why i choose that way
I already write my suicide note, suicide voice note, amd everything i need to pass down to people around me.
I drink around 20 pills with water around 11 pm. At first its feels okay. Then my head start spinning, then i my stomach hurts like hell, then I vomit around 5 times.. And its already 5 am..
I keep pondering should i tell my parents or not cause it hurts like hell. Then around 7 am I tell my mom..
We go to ICU and the doctor give me some meds. But it still hurts like hell. What I heard is my mom and dad keep praying for me. And here I am still alive..
Not gonna try this anymore.. its too painful..
Ill try to live my life more.. I WILL DO MY BEST !!!
I drag you down..
I shouldnt tell you my story
I shouldnt make you fall in love with me
I regret everything..
The monster keep wanting you besides me
The monster keep wanting you to love me
I should let you go before..
I can see what happen next
Its not a good thing its not
This cant be undone..
I hate you
I hate myself
A man jump from 4th floor and die
Its a suicide
The day when I decided to kill myself
There is a mall near my house, it only takes 15 mins to walk
I keep walking around the mall to search the best place to jump
And I found it..
And thats the place a man choose to die
Its a good place he proves it
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