I just fought off my urge to watch porn and I feel a little better. I can feel less ashamed of who I am today and hopefully tomorrow. I don’t know if others feel the same way as I do about porn but personally I don’t give a fuck anymore. I want to rid myself of this habit. I’m doing this for me despite what others may think of it. I KNOW that this stuff is fucking my mind up. The longest I ever ‘detoxed’ from porn was 2 weeks and I remember how much that helped my self-esteem. I remember feeling very comfortable in my own skin. The man I saw in the mirror looked happier and more attractive somehow. Then I relapsed and then that man in the mirror wasn’t very attractive anymore. I felt disgusted with myself, and it’s how I’ve felt lately until just 4 hours ago when I finally resisted my urge once again. I hope this time I at least last longer than 2 weeks. I know sheer willpower wont get me very far with this type of addiction but that’s okay because as long as I have a burning desire to rid myself of this perversion then I know someday I’ll be free. I don’t care how much I get ridiculed for feeling this way about it, I wont have it anymore. If i fail again then I’ll just keep getting back up. I now know that I’m probably gonna fail plenty more times but I’m not giving up. I want to feel that pure pride again.
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My comment is awaiting moderation (coz i wrote my email in it). In case it doesnt go through or it does too late for you to see it I just wanted to say that Im on the same boat with you. Also trying to quit that shit. I hope we can do it man!
Also I would recommend writing down what its doing to you, the reasons why you wanna quit it and where you could be in like a month or so if you quit. It really helps to write it down so it has some physical form.
good for you. i hope you succeed and no one is going to ridicule for feeling this way. im really proud you are taking this stance
I’m tempted to try and do the same, see how long I can go.
I gave up porn about 5 years ago, it’s one of the best decisions I’ve made.. that stuff just is wrong, there’s no grey there, it’s wrong.
Porn is an illness.
I think porn should be banned, not only because of the unrealistic expectations it gives others (appearance, how they perform, etc), but also the violent, sick and twisted acts. And lastly that many people in the porn industry are abused. There is no way to tell if those people in that porn movie have or haven’t been abused.
I haven’t looked at porn in a few months. I was never addicted. Apart from the reasons above, I just couldn’t see the point of this at all. For me it’s very unproductive. I think s e x should only be between two people who love each other, it makes it more valuable and sacred imo, then again people are free to do what they want with their bodies.