My body.

  December 3rd, 2018 by strawberrycrown

I’m sure there are many people out there that are in the same boat as I am to a certain degree, but for me what I think about myself and my body are true. Every day I look in the mirror and see a fat, ugly and worthless person staring back at me. I want so so much to become skinnier and to actually change but I can’t do it. I can’t commit to anything and it is really affecting me negatively. I study VCE health and am taught that a factor of mental health and wellbeing is positive self esteem. I have every right to not have positive self esteem, and if you looked like I do then so would you. I may be told that I’m gorgeous by my friends but I know it is just them being nice to me or they are clearly not talking about the same me that I am. I was told that I am average weight for my age but that isn’t true. Yes, I am what a “normal” weight would be classed as, but I am definitely not average when everyone around me is skinny and fit. It’s coming to summer and all I go to are non-popular beaches if I even get enough courage to go at all. I can’t live on looking the way I do and there is no way to stop me from being so fat. I know that I need to lose weight but there is no safe way to do so fast, and no way that my stubborn self can stick to. I need help…

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