I’ve tried to avoid posting for a while now. I’ve been dealing with quite a lot, mentally and physically. I felt that posting would make me feel even worse and paranoid. But here I am again.
2018 was quite slow. There were good things and a lot of painful experiences but I must admit that I wouldn’t have made it without my friends and community. The support they have given me is immense and I can in no way give back enough love to them. For a while I felt guilty, I still do. This feeling comes from the fact that even with all this love, I cannot guarantee that I won’t take my life. I cannot share this with anyone in my physical life so I share it here.
Does anyone feel this way? How do you overcome it?
I’m trying my best, really I am. My circumstances make it difficult to push ahead.