Fwck it

I hate that l oscillate between wanting to live, to die, to change the impossible
I hate that l have and had shitty mental, physical and emotional states for all my life
I hate that l took these antipsychotics for the last ten years and l still have not got used to their effects
I do not like that l spend too much time inside the house not doing much
I hate it that people do not help, do not understand me
I hate some things, my life, my lifestyle. I hope some will understand me and l will try to change it soon
It hurts man, it fuckin hurts for years
I w k y a i l c, s m c b