Hi everyone

(tl:dr- hi, I’m depressed too)

I discovered this site back around March 2018. I used to check it every night or so, just see what others were going through. Since then I’ve checked it now and then, but not much. The only name that still sticks in my head is Clipped Wings, I forget why though.

I’ve been depressed for a few months over a year now, and I think making an account here might help, and give me the chance to help others. I’ve always thought of killing myself, I’ve come close only a few times though.

I’ve had a girlfriend for the past year. She’s the only one whose helped me, and the only one who knows I’m depressed (I don’t like everyone knowing, depressed just doesn’t seem like “me”, and I don’t like excess attention). She’s the center of my world. Our relationship has it’s ups and downs (the downs really upset me though) but despite all the times she’s yelled at me, I’ve never yelled at her. She has depression too, and she’s had it for a lot longer than I have. I do my best to help her, and she says that if it weren’t for me, she’d be dead.

She also says that I’m very talented with my musical abilities. I don’t see it though.

I love making jokes to make people feel better, other than that, I’m very quiet in school. I’m in all advanced classes though.  I used to have a lot of friends who enjoyed hearing the jokes. But there were always people who hated me because of them, they would make rumors about me. Eventually the number of people who still liked me shrank greatly because of this. She still loved me though.

That’s a little about me. I’m currently very stressed out, and have a lot on my plate. I look forward to getting to know everyone.

See you soon,

-U