I’m in a very dark place rn, my heart is racing nonstop, my anxiety is through the roof, I can’t stop but think of offing myself. Anyone in such a dark place rn? 🙁
Hey, buddy. I’m being constantly pulled back into the dark place in between moments of worldliness. It sucks that I can’t relate to my own family anymore. Just pretending to be part of society now. In my head, I’m planning a no-nonsense smooth exit.
It seems I can only think about the times I made suicide attempt. Once I bought a 20 gauge shotgun and another time I swallowed 500 pills. I thought I would be dead at 18 years old, I can’t believe or stomach that I am still alive. A retard stole my gun.
Darkness is a constant lately, but I keep grasping towards where I think light is. Not to downplay the serious conversation to be had on ending your life, but do you want to make that decision while racked with anxiety? Is that the place and ending that is preferable?
I can’t make a decision based on a temporary feeling. If I end my life, it will be knowing that the facts support that move.
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Hey, buddy. I’m being constantly pulled back into the dark place in between moments of worldliness. It sucks that I can’t relate to my own family anymore. Just pretending to be part of society now. In my head, I’m planning a no-nonsense smooth exit.
It seems I can only think about the times I made suicide attempt. Once I bought a 20 gauge shotgun and another time I swallowed 500 pills. I thought I would be dead at 18 years old, I can’t believe or stomach that I am still alive. A retard stole my gun.
Darkness is a constant lately, but I keep grasping towards where I think light is. Not to downplay the serious conversation to be had on ending your life, but do you want to make that decision while racked with anxiety? Is that the place and ending that is preferable?
I can’t make a decision based on a temporary feeling. If I end my life, it will be knowing that the facts support that move.