everything falls… when your are not free, when your are bounded by nature. you’re a slave, a servant, a second class human, mere higher than a machine, when your will is not yours. when the penalty is yours for others’ faults. when your life is not yours. when your peace is not your birth right, when beauty is only in your imagination. when your reality is rot. when pain is your blood, when joy is your enemy, when you are a mere shadow, shackles around your soul, by eternal nature. when you’re not permitted to feel pain, when you’re not permitted to a full stomach, emty stomach is your nature, when you are not part of nature, seems like you are not a part of God’s reality, nor of the devil’s. when meaning is not your meaning, when reality are lies to you. when lies are your reality. God’s unplanned. Me. the unnature, the unreal, the anti-God, the anti-Real, Me. placeless, nor heaven nor hell nor earth. the unexisting. the evil. the darkness death, Me. the Lightless, Me. the Hate, Me. death, Me. no-hope, Me. the dead, non-exist, Me. life & death = null = Me. lies are reality. no more. the eternal curse, the perpetual curse, Me. i long not to exist. i am unnatural, unreal. slavery. eternity. perpetual.
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I feel u , I’m in my shitiest situation I ever been and trust me I also do want to end my life but idk why and how some part of me keep telling me to not to…or maybe it’s me I’m just a ***** don’t have the gut doing it or maybe whoever’s voice it is it’s giving u a head up like some 11:11 shit y’know. You will read my post in future it would be happy ending or sad ending post. One thing I know for sure if I die and I had chance to met god (if exists) ik “it” gonna judge and sue me and im gonna go to hell (again if it exists) but I’m also gonna sue “it” and throw it into “it”’s face cause of creating such a messy,imperfect,cruel “life” from infinite space to microscopic life-form.