I want to sleep. But I fear waking up with anxiety eating at me again. It’s like this every night. I want calm sleep. I want to be held first thing in the morning. I want peace. I don’t want to have a thousand thoughts to wake me.
I wish I could enjoy my nightmares. I need to embrace them.
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You ought to wonder why you are having nightmares to begin with. That is rather important.
I have really bad nightmares like to the point of I will self harm myself because of them and want to commit
I struggle because I feel like it’s someone who wants to cause me guilt and shame that brings me these nightmares.
But at the end of the day it just is a meaningless feeling of hate, victimization and torture.
Sometimes I feel like there is someone following me through everything I do….
It’s kind of not normal, but…? I don’t know what to say.