I have been struggling with depression for years, and the suicidal thoughts have only come in the last 4 years or so. I have a tendency to eat away my stress, which increases a growing weight gain and body problem. I am no ways obese, just hit overweight, but I am constantly thinking I am fat.
My mind always wanders towards me dying. I ain’t complaining, and I have tried to seek help through therapy and drugs. Working out daily, and smiling constantly. But I always feel the need to die. I am just stressed and done with life. I feel like a 80 yo who is ready to die.
Please do not take this message as “nothing will get better”. Go seek help, because if all you do is complain, then no one is going to take it seriously. I am just releasing my stress. Also, any tips to avoid food or stop cravings.